As you can tell from the title I am a reject of cbyx 2014-2015. I should have expected it I kinda did but ithougjt maybe for once something good would happen in my life. Boy was I wrong. Yesterday they started calling people at about 3 and I didn't get a call I was starting to get worried and even more worried then at I think like 5:10 I got an email saying I was rejected, I known I wasn't an alternate at this point because like 30 mins before they sent the alternates their emails. I hate this so much. I chose cbyx over rotary and now I'm not going anywhere. I only found 2 other people who were rejected but I know that there isn't no more then probably 15 rejects as they probably have 15 alternates. I keep asking myself what the hell did I do wrong? I can't find an answer. I'm going to call Julia in a bit and ask because I need to know. I'm probably going to apply again next year but if I couldn't beat 15 kids to become an alternate how am I going to beat another round of kids next year. I honestly feel embarrsed because by being flat out rejected means I couldn't beat 30 kids to be a finalist. 30! Last year I think someone said there were 120 semi'a but this year there were 80. I keep crying and I'm dying on the inside because exchange means so much to me and now I was told no your not good enough to be an exchange student. Now I have to watch all my Rotary friends leave for exchange and also the cbyx people I bonded with leave. It stings really bad. I hope the best for them. Congrats to my friend Diana, we've stuck out this journey since before they announced semi's and now she will be headed to Germany! I'm so proud of you if you are reading this. Also congrats to Nataila and Sophia! And congrats to all the CBYX CIEE finalist and all CBYX finalist.
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